Some rambling thoughts.
On the surface, it’s kind of weird that social pressure and expectations turn me into such a ball of mush, and intimidation doesn’t affect me at all. I think it’s a couple of things.
- lack of personal experience with physical violence
- general “freeze”/numbness
- delayed/weird processing
I guess on some level intimidation registers as fake? It registers as someone trying to seem scary, not someone who actually intends to hurt me.
Some kinds of body language/social subtext/whatever just reach out and grab me, and others I notice them and it’s just like “Oh. That person is trying to ____.”
And I have a contrary streak a mile wide, when it comes to things that I don’t feel obligated to obey.