This happened a while ago and I’m tired so you get about half a thought.
Apparently there is a part of my brain that thinks “well, maybe I don’t have a ____ to criticize, maybe I don’t exist, maybe I’m not a person at all, so there” is an appropriate response to certain problems.
But it doesn’t mean what it might sound like. It’s like…
If I don’t have the label of officially being a person (or a whatever else), then I can go about actually being a person however I want to and nobody can tell me I’m doing it wrong.
I certainly wasn’t expecting this when I tried to put this feeling into words, but it’s what I got.