and I realized how precisely it parallels the last thing I posted here, so I had to come put it here instead. In the time between that last post and this, I got a retail job.
Honestly the most important thing about this job is just having the tangible proof that I can have a job. People can see me as useful. People can appreciate my work. Things I can do aren’t necessarily pointless or stupid. I can do the things that are expected of me and other people can see what I’m doing and think it’s well-done.
It’s one thing to know that in a shallow, theoretical way. It’s another thing entirely to have the money in your bank account and the hours on your schedule.